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Blue Bird

Slightly to misdirect you, the title of this post is the name of one of the best bitters around, and one of which i have recently discovered. If you ever see this drink and be merry!

Im writeing this waiting for kayleigh to arive. My new girlfriend as has been mentioned, and things are looking good for us though it still pales in comparison to what had come before, I can still hope to forget.

Todays little bundle of rambeling joy is simply about a thaught I had yesterday about Christianity and the Trinity.

I am a Religious studies student at university, and though it is only a minor course I am taking it is something that I am very much interested in. Religion confuses me in that i do not see any divinity in what I have seen, and thus cannot see how the other functions of religion cannot be fulfilled by less.... draining and consumeing (in all manners) ways?

But anyway, I diverge.

The point is that I can see that the God, Son and Holy spirit are one and three. Whole and seperate. But what I cannot see and rationalise with that creed is the relationship changes all through the bible with these 'entities'. God speaks/communicates to Jesus; is God speaking to himself? When does the Holy Spirit begin in the world; there is no mention pre-Jesus. Could this Trinity end; as things are, all things that ahve a beginning have an ending.

There are many confuseing aspects to Christianity that I do not understand. As I have been repeatedly told, there are many aspects in the tradition that are in tension and that change. The one underlying feature though (perversly) is truth. And it is this contored truth in constant flux that rules much of the world today (Yes, that means you George Bush).

A (very short) reply would say something on the line of there is underlying 'goodness' in christianity that is followed. But Even so soem of the things about the Religion which I am now finding show me even more so that there is nothing in it, more than (some/many) good minded individuals and a very corrupt structure.




It seems as though this is the start of a number of things, apart from this blog of which i am not sure are good things or not.

Chief of which, and one of two i will write about, is a new girlfriend Kayleigh. Sounds a little trivial doesn't it. Well it possibly is in the long run of things (and here i am talking about life times) but at this moment in time it could be exactly what the doctor (or indeed myself) ordered; confusion is what seems to be ruling things at the moment... Confusion and change.

I am at university, Lancaster to be precise, and even though that is not exactly anything new (I am now into my second term) it still feels new. I am settled, yes. I am relaxed, yes. And I am enjoying myself here. But how can this new situation compare to my grounding and home before this? I think the simple answer is it can't and that from now until I 'settle down' in whatever guise that may take (married?) the solid defense of a place that is a real home will now be impossible.

Everywhere will be temporary.